I have to be honest though, there's a part of me that is scared stiff. The "first" of anything usually gives a human being the jitters so I know I'm not unusual in this aspect. Artwork is intensely personal so having out there on display is intense. But I'm also terrifically excited. It all feels like I'm embarking on a new life! A life that I have created for myself. In my 20's and 30's, much of my life was adapted to fit around the world that surrounded me - people I loved, jobs I held, etc. So it feels amazing to be 40+ and survey my life to see that the world around me has adapted to ME. Not only that but that the world did it willingly!! lol Ironic really given the number of years I wrestled and struggled. I'm sure someday hindsight will be 20/20 and I'll figure out how this came to be but for the moment, I want to believe that it is the natural byproduct of letting go and just doing what feels right to the heart - world be damned.
I have to acknowledge that many hands have carried me this past year. There have been so MANY people - some friends, some complete strangers (that I now call friend) - who just seemed to sweep up behind me and push me along whether I wanted to move or not. In my mind, I was just goofing around enjoying myself and the mental break from the 24/7 job of "Mother". Other people just seemed to have a different idea about what I was doing. They took it far more seriously than I did and it took quite a bit for them to convince me. Thank God they did.
I'd like to also thank Jill Zelley for loving my work so much that she would reach out to a complete stranger (me) to invite them to have their own show. I'm honored, grateful and truly humbled that my work resonated with her so much that she used exclamation points after almost every sentence. She has literally changed my life and I hope someday I can put those exclamation points into her life.
I love this blog... Good luck for your first show, I am confident it will be amazing. Your art is something wonderful you share with the rest of the world and the rest of the world is thankful that you do! Enjoy the limelight, bask in your success , you truly deserve too. See you at the MSM.
ReplyDeleteMany thanks Anonymous (whoever you are!)
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